I was dumbfounded.I was dumbfounded. What was going on? Why was she acting this way? Mary was getting me sexually excited, but I was also getting nervous and scared. I'm quite insecure about sex and I always feared beautiful women -- they always seemed to be so confident and so sure of their abilities to get men to do what they want. And I have always been especially vulnerable to that sort of manipulation due to my sexual insecurities and low self-esteem. What did she want, anyway? I couldn't imagine she would want to be this sexual with me just for her own pleasure, and I tried to figure out what might be her ulterior motive. Could it be that she was working in cahoots with Rachael and was somehow trying to seduce me to stay with the agency? That seemed likely, but I couldn't imagine what Mary would get out of it. With Rachael, it was obvious: as the owner of the company she would profit from my staying on and continuing to generate her percentage of my take. But what about Mary and her paltry receptionist's salary? Did Rachael offer Mary a commission to persuade me to stay? If so, did she tell her to use sex? Or did she just ask Mary to be charming and is this all Mary's idea? I figured it was likely that Mary _was_ doing this for the agency for some sort of compensation -- probably monetary. I got more than a little bit angry at Mary's manipulation, and I decided to give her a piece of my mind when she came back, and I started rehearsing what I was going to say to her. But as I did, I began to have second thoughts. Mary had turned me on a lot and part of me -- a _big_ part of me, I grudgingly admitted to myself -- wanted more. I became quite scared as I realized how much I wanted her to continue with her manipulative seduction despite the fact that it may not necessarily be in my best interests. |