I figure my memory's pretty finite.I figure my memory's pretty finite... eventually all the past will blend together into a hazy combination of memory and imagination, much of it stored away in The Journal Entries or other historical documents and of not much import to me then. But anyway, let's say our time is infinite. Infinity divided by any real number is still infinite. If I take a fraction of my time away from P'nyssa to be with you, as long as I go back to her eventually, she'll still have an infinity of time to spend with me. And so will you." "But isn't she bored back at home, alone? I mean, N'nance came with us, and she likes to spend nights with him." "So? Doesn't mean she's going to be lonely or bored. There are plenty of people, male and female, who are just clawing their way to get into bed with her. P'nyssa doesn't realize just how attractive she is, and it embarrasses her when people fawn over her beauty. Besides, I think she'll just want some time to herself." "Probably. I know you do, at times. Or at least, you did quite often when I lived with you." I nodded. "I still do. P'nyssa gives it to me. I have to wonder about her, about how much sacrifice she gives up to me." "Do you feel guilty about it?" "To be honest, yeah. Am I doing enough for her? What have I done to deserve someone as special as she is to me? I mean, all the things she could be doing, and is doing... but I still feel she's shackled by living with me." "She doesn't have a very high sex drive, you said. Maybe living with you is an acceptable option because you don't have one, either." "Huh? That's something I never expected to hear. Someone tell me I have a low libido." "Not really. Your libido is linked to your head, Ken, not your crotch. You have sex when and where you want it... you control yourself better than most people." "It's just a good superego," I laughed. She looked at me puzzled. Her ears flickered back and forth as mosquitoes bothered them. "No, that's not it, either." She looked aside, embarrassed, and shrugged. "You're just very much in control of certain parts of yourself. In other places, you're a complete idiot, Ken, but when it comes to sex you're completely self-directed. I can't figure out a way to describe it." I shrugged. |