Does that make sense? Reading back over it, I can see how you might think it nonsensical to achieve a completely relaxed state of nervous apprehension, but it was a very real sense of .Does that make sense? Reading back over it, I can see how you might think it nonsensical to achieve a completely relaxed state of nervous apprehension, but it was a very real sense of ... release, I guess. As the feeling fades, I wish I knew how to recapture it; last night I really had it going strong. Sorry about all the introspection. You probably want me to get to the "good stuff" but if I'm going to have to write this, I'm going to "do it my way." Ma own se'f. Besides, I know that if I just "tell it like it was" without any explanation, there's no way you could possi- bly understand why a previously conservative (in my social attitudes, not my politics) midwesterner would agree to do these sorts of things. |