Just seeing me this way had done this to him.Just seeing me this way had done this to him. I chalked up another orgasm for that day. So did he. Afterward, in bed together, we discussed my feelings about what had happened that day. He is very persuasive. It was clear that while he was satisfied with our relationship before, he was becoming addict- ed to it now. He didn't put in so many words, but I was somehow in the process of trapping him. I admitted some of the same feelings to him, although that day's events had almost cured my addiction. The practi- cal aspects of my hair could easily be dealt with by using a wig, even at a job and while exercising. I could stick with the stair and other exercise machines rather than the aerobics until it grew back. I could wear a short-haired wig and grow my hair into the same style so there would be no conspicuous transition. And he wanted to have me as his own, as his possession, so that there was no question that I belonged to him alone and absolutely. Emotionally, for me, that was a strong argument in his favor. I finally came to the conclusion that my real reservations all stemmed from gut-level emotional reactions to being "different" and the nagging fear that down deep he might be a little weird. But there was also a kind of excitement at being different and having no-one know. And weird or not, he loved me and I thought I could even love him weird. I decided to reserve judgement until we had tried the wig out in public. But I still hated what he had done to me. -*- The next day, we did just that. At the exercise spa, the guy who runs the front desk complimented me on my hair. He thought I'd had it done. The brown wig was shorter and slightly different in color and texture from my old hair. No-one else even commented on the change. That evening, he got out my white knit dress (nothing underneath, naturally, but a pair of bandaids to hide my nipple rings) and I wore the brown wig again. We went to the movies. I had missed "9 1/2 Weeks" the first time it showed, but it was back again and we saw it. |