It would take me a while to quit my job and find a sublet for the apartment.It would take me a while to quit my job and find a sublet for the apartment. Our part of Chicago is full of student rental property and the demand for apartments is seasonal. In the end, there were two more months of letters and frustration while I tried to sublet. But our plans, at least, were finalized that night. On a flip of a coin, while we were waiting for desert, he won first choice on the List, and he chose that I would be his slave for a month, to start the day I arrived at his place in [deleted]. Over desert, I asked what he wanted to get out of that month; I got some very interesting answers. So interesting that we sat there until the restaurant closed, talking about it. Actually I was trying to get him so turned on he would change his mind about waiting until I came south. Anyway, it was an education to learn what he wanted. I am tempted to say that there were layers upon layers of psychology to peel away, but it was really just very complex and convoluted. He wanted to control me--at least for a while, the month's duration of the List. But he doesn't want simple submission. I am supposed to resist, but it must be more than resistance against him; he seems to want me to resist something in myself as well. |