Some people say "Tis better to have loved and lost, than never to have loved at all.Some people say "Tis better to have loved and lost, than never to have loved at all." Whoever said that has never been through what I've been through - and I'm not so sure they're right. It's been over a year now, and I can't get her out of my thoughts. I don't understand why she did what she did. Maybe before you get totally confused, I should tell you my story so you'll understand the depth of pain, uncertainty, and confusion I feel. I should probably tell you a bit about myself - I've been a "computer nerd" most of my life, and in high school I only had 2 dates. In college, I decided to change my image a bit, and I was pretty successful. I grew to weigh 200 pounds (muscle) traded my nerd-glasses for contacts, and consulted a few friends on my wardrobe. Funny, but it didn't change my "luck" with women as much as I thought it would. I'd found out early it wasn't what's inside that first attracts a woman, it's what they think they see on the outside. At least, that's what I thought. But now that I was "attractive", I still wasn't meeting anyone. Hmmm... I always thought I was "husband material" - you know, successful, intelligent, didn't drink, smoke, do drugs, and so on - but then again, not having had the opportunity to be very social, what did I know? One day, I was attending a company meeting at work, and across the room I locked eyes with an angel. She was gorgeous! Blonde hair, bluegreen eyes, and as much as I could see of her figure were all heavenly. |