).). Bill asked to send the presents to me, so that I could be sure that Jack got them. I was trying to think up something extra special for Jack also. We had become good friends, and I didn't want him to be depressed on Christmas day. Speaking of Christmas day, I wasn't looking forward to it as I knew that I was going to have to work. I worked out with my ex-husband to take my son for Christmas so he could have a normal Christmas. He would spend most of Christmas eve with me, and then I would drop him off at his father's house. It was important to me that he wake up Christmas day and celebrate traditionally. I was a bit depressed that I wouldn't be able to be a part of that celebration, however. I'm afraid that is one of the trade offs to having a regular schedule was working holidays. Anyway, so I was still trying to think up something special. I even went back to the adult book store to see if they had anything interesting. But at that point, it seemed like all they had was more of the same. I picked up another copy of Video Xcitement and looked for some tapes from there that might interest Jack. There were a couple possibilities. There was an article on making your own home movies and I wondered if I would enjoy trying that. That gave me the idea to make a tape for Jack's Christmas gift. It would work out well since I could be sure that he wouldn't share it with anyone so no one else would see it. I just wasn't sure if I had the nerve to do something like that. Finally, I decided to make a tape and then decide if I would give it to Jack. I watched a bunch of the amateur tapes and decided what parts I liked and what I wanted to do. I realized that my favorite films had obviously been filmed with a camera person as the camera angles changed and there were close ups. Some, however, were taped with one fixed camera angle. I decided that I would have to use a tripod as there was no one that I trusted to be my camera person. |