As I said, I was feeling a little bitter.As I said, I was feeling a little bitter. "Doing this makes it easier for you," he went on. "What the hell are you talking about?!" "Dignity and pride obscure our relationship and our sexuality the way a fire is obscured by its own smoke. I didn't disfigure you. I took away some dignity. To me you are more beautiful than ever, because you are almost completely mine. If you want public dignity you can go out in public with a wig. I even have one for you, but you will wear it when I allow it. You will have no private dignity. "You are not disfigured. You are changed. It is important that you understand .... " "I don't believe this," I interrupted. But he went on and on. There was more, but he wasn't connecting with me. It sounded rehearsed. I didn't even listen to most of it, and I wasn't buying it, but on the other hand, now, I can see what he had intended, what he wanted to happen. J has always preferred subtlety as a way of getting what he wants. |