From Nurse Jones, I'm getting pretty good at hypnosis.From Nurse Jones, I'm getting pretty good at hypnosis. Or maybe Jay is just very susceptible to induction; he seems to get more so as we work at it. I can get him into a trance in just a few minutes now, having planted posthypnotic suggestions that help. In fact, I have had him following posthypnotic suggestions for a week now, just harmless ones, but increasing in complexity. For example I tried giving him a complicated sequence for shaving his face in the morning, for example. It worked fine. I did that so I could watch him to see if it worked: I'm usually in the bathroom putting on my face while he's shaving. I'm even getting time compression to work. The last two times I gave him complicated instructions, I had him repeat them silently to himself eight times in thirty seconds real time, an hour experiental time, and he did. He took all the time he needed to do it, and it saved hours of repetition on my part. I think we're ready to "do" him. It's still me that I'm worried about, but not as much. Jay is working on that, also through hypnosis, and it seems to be working. I must be an easier subject than he is. One of the books we have said that might be the case. I'm a bit of an exhibitionist, and don't feel as defensive as Jay about "letting myself go" in front of him. Anyway, I'm beginning to accept the idea. Jay isn't going to be changed, or a different person. There is this tiny, silent, female voice inside him. It is there in most men, overwhelmed and vestigial. She will have her moment in the sun, and Jay will watch from the inside and learn what he wants to know about himself, experience what he wants to experience. I will be preparing him like a makeup artist would an actor for a part. While she's here, I'll have a few hours to make a new friend, get to know that side of Jay, however briefly. Someone (Phillip, I think) said I needed a mission. That's it, I think. A few months ago, I would have thought revenge to be mission enough. Bring her out, send her back. LET him walk the walk. That's the mission. That helped. |