I understand the idea.I understand the idea." "Mmm-hmm," I replied, then explained what I had meant. He laughed gently when I was done. It felt like soft thunder against my head. "I was thinking about... Aaden, am I denied something by being as completely pansexual as I am?" "I doubt it. What makes you ask?" "Oh, I don't know. I was running drills with Steve this weekend, keeping in practice, you know. And he and Dillion went drinking together afterwards. What gets me is that I didn't really see the point. I guess what I've been thinking is that I've never really been anybody's 'buddy,' if you get my drift." He shrugged gently and said, "You're my buddy," he said. "No, I'm not. I'm your lover. I'm your friend. But I'm not really a 'buddy.' I guess I've never tried to participate in quote male bonding unquote. I've seen it happen, but I don't understand it." "I think you're letting your imagination run away with you again, that's what I think. Ken, you've got plenty of friends, even some you don't want to have sex with." "Name one." "Dave." I stopped and thought about that. "Well, he's an AI." "Yeah, so? How long did you want to have sex with Lynn? I think the point is that there are some people you want to like that you don't want to have sex with." "Think so?" He shrugged. "I don't know. I don't know you. But I do have the evidence of The Journal Entries. As I recall, you were pretty celibate for a while there." I smiled and said "Well, I guess. I don't know." We were both silent for a short while. "My turn to ask a heavy question," he said. |