"That's just for a beginning," she said and stormed out of the room."That's just for a beginning," she said and stormed out of the room. I tried to fight the pain, but I had been knocked out completely by her well-aimed blow, and I think I passed out. I know that I woke up some hours later, and it was completely dark. I got up, saw that it was late, and made my way to the bedroom. When I turned the knob I found that the door was locked. "Can I come to bed?" I cried out. "Not in my bed. Go to the spare room and fuck yourself," I heard Julie reply. "Can I get some pajamas?" "No, fuck off!" That was all there was to it. I knew that there was no chance at all of persuading her to open the door. * * * The next morning we didn't speak at breakfast, despite an attempt on my part to raise what had happened again and repeat my apologies. As I started to speak she must have guessed what I was going to say, for she simply got up and walked from the breakfast room. The days that followed were miserable ones, and I hardly knew what to do. I thought of leaving her, but despite what had happened, I still wanted her desperately in my life. |