Another Saturday evening finds me sitting at home with nothing to do.Another Saturday evening finds me sitting at home with nothing to do. Not that I really am looking for something to do. I don't have the energy. I programmed all afternoon, playing with some graphics functions in my C compiler. My mom asks me if I want to call a friend and go midnight bowling, her treat. She's in her robe and my dad's home...Ok, I can take a hint. I don't want to go bowling, so I clean my room and tell them I'm going to the library. Twenty years old and living at home. I guess it's not unusual, but I still feel like a child doing it. I don't have much of a choice, though. School costs a lot of money. But still...My girlfriend has her own place. Well, not really her own. She rooms with her sister and her sister's boyfriend. But she's away from her parents. I love my parents, but I'd really like to get out, too. So I'm driving down College Avenue towards CSU. I stop at the gas station to get a pack of cigarettes, even though I'm "Trying to Quit." Hell, I only started six months ago. When I get back in the car I light up. The energy's just not right for the library anymore. I wish I were with Sandi. Saturday is supposed to be our day. But she has to work. Her boss made some excuse why she couldn't work, and Sandi was stuck with the shift. She can't quit -- too many bills. I guess that's the price you to pay for living on your own. Now I have to wait until tomorrow to see her. Sandi works two full time jobs now. She's trying to get the cash to buy a car. Maybe I'm lazy, but there's no way I could do that. |