I don't think I'm narcissistic, because I enjoy the physical act of doing these things rather than the results.I don't think I'm narcissistic, because I enjoy the physical act of doing these things rather than the results. Sounds like I'm justi- fying something, I know, but the preparation is more important than the finished product. Maybe a bit like a craftsman who likes his job. I take a lot of time with it, and try out new and different variations whenever I can. I have a tendency to make myself look too artificial, although a little artificiality is attractive, I think. Needless to say, I have about a ton of partly-used experimental makeup. Several times when things were slow on the night shift at the hospital (a rare thing, believe me) I even removed some of my own moles: I anesthetized the area with topical benzocaine, then injected subcutaneous xylocaine and burned the little suckers right off. Did as neat a job as any dermatologist, too. That's partly why I have such perfect skin. I got nearly all of them. I guess the point is that I like "working" on myself, and don't see decorating my nipples, depilating, and plucking my eyebrows as a burden, but rather another aspect of self improvement and maintenance, just like doing my nails; until I go back to work, I will have plenty of time for this kind of thing, so why not indulge? Besides, it's a turn-on knowing I'm getting ready for sex. |