It was kind of like I was afraid of getting involved with someone.It was kind of like I was afraid of getting involved with someone. Like I didn't want to have to try and think up ways of telling her I wasn't interested in seeing her. And when she mentioned that she was married, hell, it was amazing. ALl of a sudden I wasn't at all nervous to talk with her. Suddenly there was no more risk. No fear of hurting or getting hurt or having to try and think up ways of seeing Did without including her so that I can get under his belly. SIgh.... It's weird, it really is. Not that I am uncomfortable with the person that I am, or with my sexuality, it just honest to god is really strange to me that I choose and like animals over people when there is just sooooo much stimuli in my life that should have pushed me in the direction of people. I really should jot down some of my childhood experiences some day. Maybe when I have some spare time. (Seeing as it's 1:30 am right now....) Sunday, September 9,1990- Well well well well well well well well well well well well. I got to see Did for a few hours during the afternoon. Then I had to take the portapotty back to the contrsuction site. Then I went out and bought em a brand spanking new VCR! Now I can make some dupes of some rather special tapes that I have. (The NATURE specials that I always tape. I have been wanting to do some selective ... ahem... editing of them. put together a nice little anthology! THis should be fun! Monday, September 10, 1990- I got in to see Did tonight. |