I began breathing again in great gulps and gasps.I began breathing again in great gulps and gasps. After we were through he inched his way out slowly and carefully. I was grateful for that. I was almost sorry to feel him finally leave. I felt emptied. Depleted. He turned off the vibrator, unbuckled the belt around my waist, and cut my wrists free, leaving the scissors for me to free myself the rest of the way. While he was in the shower, I just stared at myself in a daze. I am normally in a daze after a "session", but this time I was dazed by the way I looked as much as by how I felt. I just stared mindlessly for quite a while. Finally, I shook myself out of it and cut my knees free. I sat on the stool for a few minutes, peeling electrician's tape off my skin and trying to get my head together before getting to my feet. I felt a bit wobbly. I was still wearing those chains, but other than that, when I stood in front of the mirror I was completely--and I mean completely--nude. It was quite a shocking sight. I'm sorry to dwell on this, but it's the biggest thing that's happened to my body since I reached puberty and grew tits. I really look different. So very, very naked. Words like nude, exposed, hairless, bald, shorn, and shaved all come to mind, and I know I keep saying this over and over, but these words just don't capture the feeling of being totally naked everywhere and from all angles. I don't know how to express it. It just wasn't me in the mirror. I turned to the side to see what I looked like. Still in disbelief over my appearance, my hand crept up to touch my scalp, half checking to make sure it was really true, still hoping it wasn't. With the hand mirror, I looked at the back of my head. It is so white and smooth and round--even paler than the rest of my skin, which was quite pale, even after the first treatment with tanning lotion. It isn't lumpy, like some bald men's heads are; it is a perfectly fea- tureless dome, front, back, and sides. Somehow that makes it look even more naked. I usually think of my earrings as minor accessories, but without any hair they suddenly have become a major aspect of my facial appearance. They used to be hidden by my hair. |