I thought about being in New Jersey in a little over 24 hours and could hardly believe all this was happening so quickly.I thought about being in New Jersey in a little over 24 hours and could hardly believe all this was happening so quickly. I went through my apartment checking on things. I gathered up all of my magazines and newspapers and put them in a bag to throw out. It would be embarrassing if anybody found them. I took a small overnight bag and got some of my important papers, my checkbook, and a few pictures of my family as keepsakes. I sat in my living room and looked around. I didn't have a lot of possessions but it was hard to just walk away from everything. I ordered a pizza and watched TV. I wasn't sure when I'd be able to do either of those again. At 10:00 I turned out the lights and went to bed. I tossed and turned for over an hour, unable to fall asleep. On one hand I was curious about what lay ahead. On the other, I was absolutely terrified. I got up and turned on my word processor, probably for the last time. I re-read the letter I had written to Mistress Donna on Monday night. I paled and shook as I slowly read it over and over again. How could I have written all those things! Why did I ever mail it! I had been a fool. I should have just beat off and gone to sleep but I had to write that damn stupid letter! Around midnight I finally managed to fall asleep. I woke up late on Friday. It was my last day. My last day as a free man, so why bother to rush into work? I read the paper and watched TV. Then I showered, shaved, dressed and drove into work. I arrived around 11:30. Word had already spread that this was my last day and people stopped me in the hallways to shake my hand and wish me luck. |