she has been crying.she has been crying. while she rests for a minute, I go get my pins and show them to her. 'this happened to you?' (yes.) 'who is doing it?' (i don't know.) i lied. why? I don't know. later that week I am awakened by a rock hitting my window. I look out and see mother naked with her hand in her pussy. I go down and let her in. she is very humble. she doesn't say anything to me. she just goes into her bedroom and shuts the door. the next time we are alone, I ask mother if we should call the police. she goes white and insists that the police not be called. I knew she would. (what can we do?) 'i'm thinking on it. i'll come up with something.' [75] I am not surprised when a rock hits my window three weeks later. i see mother naked again outside my window. I go down and open the door. mother is nowhere around. she has collapsed under my window. I help her into the house. 'pussy, asshole, burn.' I know what that means. i help her up to the bathroom and force a baking soda douch into her pussy and asshole. she is sobbing uncontrolably. I give her several aspirins and put her to bed. I make two ice packs and place them on her pussy and asshole. I stay up all night to help if needed. each time she wakes, she wants water. I send the twins to school the next day and stay home with mother. she is in and out of consciousness until noon. when she wakes up, she cries for a time, asks for more ice for the icepacks, and asks for more drink. when she is stable we talk. 'i know where your rash came from.' I nod. 'did they do this to you too?' (not in my asshole.) 'that is the worst part. I can't reach it or do anything about the pain. I am sorry, that I spanked you. i feel so ashamed. please forgive me.' (i forgive you.) it takes several weeks for her to recover. tommy leaves us alone for some time. when he calls to start tapeing sessions again, I tell him to go to hell. [76] I live to regret talking to him that way. two weeks later while walking home from work, tommy kidnaps me. it was so simple. they just drove up next to me, opened the door and pulled me in. |