I feel good every time I go to see did.I feel good every time I go to see did. It's a strange thing. I don't even ....yeah I do, I'm watching the news as I type this and I just saw the Avery family portriat. The folks that were sacrificially murdered by the lundgrens. It's that lil thing of trust, or at least knowing just about where you stand with something. I know where I stand with Did. I kow he's a stallion and I know that if he thinks he can, he'll try to dominate me. If he thinks *I'm* a stallion, then, if he thinks he can, He'll go so far as to try and kill me. But I KNOW that. The Avery's didn't know that. The avery's trusted the folks they prayed with. (NOT that I am religious). Their reward was to get murdered, one at a time by some stupid fucking two legged peice of trash. People just seem to work so fucking hard at being dishonest. It's truly amazing some of the things that people will do to try and screw you over. It's just truly amazing. It's funny how many of my freinds have gotten married and then divorced in just a few short years. Pam even said that she wouldn't do it again. I watch my sister and brother in law go some pretty sever amounts of shit. All because they wanna be married. I wanna be married, but not to someone human. I don't wanna get taken for everything I own. Hell, people work too hard at hurting you when they wanna hurt you. It just aint worth it. Don't get me wrong, I have met some VERY nice people in my life, Hell. I've loved some very nice people, very much, and I still do. But I don't want to relegate decisions and responsibility to others. And the worst of it, I don't want to share my love of animals with those that can use it against me and hurt me with it. It's all too strange upstairs. At any rate, I commited myself to love only animals over 3 years ago. Till then I was trying to push it all in the background. I was trying to hide from myself that I might realy only be intersted in animals. Didn't work (thank god!). Now that I own did, I am real happy that I made the decision that I did. |