Victoria shook her head.Victoria shook her head. "No, is not true, you wanted to fuck so bad, you would bite! I want you, so I bit girl and gave command." Her voice got softer. "Mortals are not the only ones that can be seduced by vampire power. Our power can control us, if we are not careful." She paused, letting the meaning sink in. "You are my love, and I do not wish for anything bad to happen. So, I do not want you to speak of Kelly again. Is bad sign, not because I am jealous of Kelly, but it means that you are still mortal, not vampire. Mortal weaknesses kill vampire faster than stake through heart." There was so much I had to say to her. I wanted to tell her how right she was, that I could explain everything, but that I would do better. I opened my mouth to say something, but Victoria waved her hand dismissively. "No. Remember fangs. _They_ are what matters." She pointed at her teeth, still normal in the fading daylight. She continued, "You are still only baby vampire. I care for you now and forever. Is not false promise for us." Night fell. I shivered as the unbidden memory of the would-be car thieves replayed in my mind. We didn't speak much the rest of the evening. I was lost in thought, for Victoria had raised the questions that I had been trying my best to ignore. As the night passed, my courage started running at an all-time high. I decided that I was going to get answers to my questions then and there. Victoria put an end to that idea, speaking first and saying, "Come, let us go to bed, I am tired, and would sleep with you." I begged off, saying that I had some preparation to do for work on Monday. She shrugged, "As you wish." Before leaving me alone, she gave me a sweet, wet kiss. I responded fully, but without the extra enthusiasm that had been so prevalent early in our relationship. As I watched her get ready for, and go to bed, I became aware that I was a little afraid of Victoria. No, that wasn't quite it. I was afraid of... myself. And what I'd become, and afraid of what I was on my way to becoming. |