I was almost afraid to touch myself there.I was almost afraid to touch myself there. I ran my hand over the top of my scalp. I was (am) smooth as the proverbial baby's bottom. I didn't have a mirror, but I looked into his face as I felt my head. You may find it hard to believe (I did), but after that one gesture, just touching my head, he wanted me again. I could see him rising and neither of us really even wanted sex again. It's almost like an aphrodisiac with him. I knelt and took him in my mouth, and within seconds he was rock- hard and ready for a third round. I would almost have preferred to give him a third orgasm orally, I was so exhausted, but I'm not sure I would have had the strength for that either. Fortunately, before we really got started again he stopped me. "Wait," he said, "lets give it a few more minutes..." I stopped, but he was seriously horny again. I think his psychol- ogy is stronger than his physiology. I sprinkled talcum powder on both of us and spread it around. His erection didn't subside. When I put talc on my naked scalp he went and got my wig--the long black one-- from his bedroom and told me to put it on. I don't think he could take the sight of me like that any more. This is a new thing for me, and will take some getting used to: the right kind of submission can bring a new kind of power. By paying very close attention to his reactions and needs, I can learn by experiment the kind of submissive behavior that he wants. It is clear that the control I can exert on him by behaving in just the right way is subtle, but nonetheless nearly as great as the control he exerts over me. Perhaps this is something that I should not be writing, since he will read it, but it is something I think will bring us closer if he understands it. [Note from the future: the next few paragraphs are edited and expanded heavily from the original. My manipulation of his reactions, had he understood them completely at the time, would have interfered with our relationship. Now that we are finished with Column 1 and I control this document, I can make these changes.] The next few moments taught me the value of not over-using that control. |