(paul I cannot stop you, you know that.(paul I cannot stop you, you know that. I beg you to leave me alone. please, paul.) [50] weeks pass. paul stays away. tommy doesn't call. maxine leaves me alone. I do all the chores every day. the twins talk to me now. mother leaves me alone. I am working more and saveing money. my grades in school are the tops. most important, sam has a date with me. when sam asked me, I talked with kathy about it. kathy says its ok. 'after what we have been thru together, what could you do on a date that I haven't seen you do?' I am like a girl on her first date. i buy a new dress, new shoes, new underware, even new toilet articles. i do my hair in a new way. I am ready for my date two hours early. sam arrives early too. I have the best day of my life. I think it started many days ago, but for sure, I am in love with this man. I am no good at secrets. (sam I love you. it isn't a sudden thing. it has grown for many weeks. I want to be your woman. I want to cook for you and have your babies. you don't have to marry me. I am a weak person. |