The ear plug went back in.The ear plug went back in. I felt a cold sticky finger between my ass checks, probing to find my anus. Her finger circled the rim, and then pushed in. "Oof" I exhaled. I had never had buttplay till she started. The first time it shocked the hell out of me. In a shower, in a hotel, she had just slipped a soapy pinky into my ass. I nearly fell. It made me nervous, but, at the time, it was hard to admit that it was new, or worse, that I didn't like something she wanted. We hadn't started playing BDSM games, yet. It was just another thing she did to me. The next time we were together, she had me lie on my back and hold me knees apart for her. I had felt massively exposed and vulnerable to her. Then, with some KY she started working two fingers into my ass. She told me that she would make me scream, and eventually I did. I remember her voice, as much as the words, "Relax," she had said in soft, soothing voice, "lean into the feeling, let it happen to you, welcome it". It was the first time in my life I just let go in bed, just let someone DO to me. I must have cried for an hour afterwards. Now, when I felt her stroke my prostate, I nearly climbed the walls. Except I couldn't now, being tied down, I had to let go. It helped having no choice. More lube and more fingers, she was working hard on spreading me open. A few strokes in and out, and then circular massage on the inside. Strokes, rubbing, strokes, rubbing. My mind got lost somewhere, climbing mountains with streams in the sunlight. It stopped. I was startled, I wanted more. All of a sudden she was in front of me removing the blindfold. Smiling. "I love you" she was mouthed, I could barely hear the words and I smiled back. And then, something shoved into my ass. Hard. Bigger than fingers or a butt plug. And hands on my back, other hands because there were hers, holding my head. Someone was fucking me. Someone not my lover. |