I fantasize about really calling him "Master" and taking an even more seriously submissive role, but don't think I could handle the reality without laughing.I fantasize about really calling him "Master" and taking an even more seriously submissive role, but don't think I could handle the reality without laughing. Images of Nazis in white boxer shorts and black ankle-high socks dance uncontrollably through my head. J had a solution. "We need a new protocol," he said, and began to remove the dress I had just put on. "You can start now just by NOT calling me by my first name, and by making a habit of keeping your eyes lowered. Whenever you speak or answer a question you will preface your words with a phrase like: 'If it pleases you ....' We'll start with that for a while and see how it goes. Of course, I'll punish you for mistakes. You will have to figure out what forms of address you can use without laughing, because the biggest mistake you can make is laughing. Once the habit is established, it won't be a cause for nervous laughter. Do you think you can handle that?" I thought about it, not paying attention while he got a paper bag out of the closet. Three rules: No first names, lower the eyes, and say 'If it pleases you.' And the fourth rule: no laughing about the first three. "I think so." "So?" He was looking at me, waiting. I realized what he meant and after a moment of confusion I lowered my eyes. There was a pause while he continued to wait. "If it pleases you," I said. I don't know why, but lowering the eyes is a great help. Maybe it is easier for the imagination to work without eye contact. We know each other too well, and not having eye contact puts some distance between us. I might have laughed out of embarrassment then if I hadn't had my eyes lowered. |